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Has my sexuality changed from straight to bi? (or something)

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by rich96, Jun 5, 2014.

  1. rich96

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    *I wrote up a full story of my life as a porn and masturbation addict up until my very age, and what it has done to me, i would like to post it here but i'm not sure where, or if anyone would care to read and reply to it.*

    But yeah, i'm suffering the effects of those addictions, though i do it less now, the urge is there. The reason i'm here, and why i made this post is because my sexuality, as it's called, seemed to change or bend in the course of my addiction which i explained in detail in my autobiography. I get erect by seeing a man's penis in a porn video, and yes i am attracted to women. It's something that i just need facts on, because i don't want to meet some amazing female whose family oriented and smart, and it turns out i can't have sex with her. Just today i masturbated (After some days off) to a video of a girl dancing and it was like being a young one again. But soon after i decided to do some cleaning on my PC, a windows 8, i stumbled on some porn videos and decided what i wanted and didn't want. Watched one, and i know the actress was a sight for sore eyes but then i seen the guys gentiles, i had a sudden rise, but not thinking much of it. My mouth was watery (I'm not being erotic, i'm explaining) but i wasn't glued to his junk or anything, i was watching her mostly. But i always had this theory that with every masturbation session, no matter if it's to something i like (the girl video in this case) or don't like (included in the story), i get worst on terms of my sexual balance and mental stability, just how with every inhale of a cigarette is more damage to your lungs regardless of reasoning such as depression or for fun.

    Now i know for maybe 95% of people out there, G-A-Y might be screaming in your insides, or B-I, i like females, not males, I don't know how much clearer i could put that. I wouldn't care if i was always like this, but i wasn't, so it's a huge concern for me. There has to be a term or something, i identify as straight but with this little add-on, i wouldn't think that fit in that spectrum, even if i don't like males.
     
  2. Najlen

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    People get off on strange things sometimes, and they don't always reflect your orientation. I personally would still classify you as straight, if you don't want to have sex or a romantic relationship with a guy. If you do, I would say heteroflexible or bi with a strong preference for women, but how you label yourself is your choice, if you use a label at all.