For a while I thought I might be attracted to men because I was always really nervous around them, but now I'm not so sure. I know I like women, but I'm so confused about my feelings around men. When I'm around guy, whether he is good-looking or not, I feel uncomfortable. I'm always wondering if they are checking me out and if they are I get really awkward and want them to stop. I will also try not to pay too much attention to him. When they think I'm attractive, I feel somewhat flattered but also scared at the same time. If they talk to me, even in not a flirtatious way, I try really hard to seem disinterested in them. Because I'm trying to figure out my sexuality, I often think about how I'd feel kissing them or dating them, but I have little interest in it. However it also doesn't feel wrong. I don't have many male friends (the ones I do have are mostly gay) and I've never had a boyfriend. Your thoughts?
I know that every time I talk to a women I feel like they think I'm trying to be flirty, manipulate, get with them just cause I'm a guy. I want to be friiiiends! (*hug*)