So I have realized that I'm not 100% straight. I posted all the deets in my first post which I am sure you all can find quite easily. I love women, I am in a deeply committed relationship with one right now and it is great emotionally and physically. I have had some homo encounters in the past, but I could never get hard and I don't have an easy time picturing myself with a man, though it's not impossible. I do like gay porn though, perhaps just because it is taboo. So I have come to the conclusion that I am a "Little curvy" say a kinsey 2. My problem is now my orientation is the only thing I think about, if I see a woman or a man my first thought it "Do I think they are attractive, emotionally or physically?" And it has left a very large weight in my chest. Do any of you have any advice on how to let that weight go and move on in life? It seems like it would be easier to just say that I am gay and accept one side, but I know that I would be lying to myself. Any help is much appreciated.
You could simply be a little bicurious. I know, it's the easy answer, but it may be the honest one. And if you're okay with that, then accept it and figure out what you want to do from there. Maybe talk to your girlfriend about it. She may be willing to help you through it.
I again, In terms of practices for letting go, there's LOTS of books, audio books, video lectures, podcasts on this. Look at things like the Sedona Method, the F--k It technique, Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), The Power of Now, or of course mediatation, tai chi, qi gong etc. etc. It just depends on what flavour you like best or can accept more easily. Peace! (*hug*)
