Well, here goes. It's 1 am as I'm typing this, and I just had this sudden urge to go on a forum to talk about how I feel. I am currently 22, and I have no idea who I am. I have never dated anyone, let alone have had any sexual experiences with people of any gender. I find myself utterly confused about my sexual orientation. I find girls attractive, but I also find guys attractive. However, I'm never really sure if what I feel is merely an admiration of how they look or straight up lust. Sometimes, when I see a hot girl walking past me, I just can't help picturing them naked, and sometimes when I see a hot guy walking past me, I wonder what it feels like being touched by him in a sexual way. Does this mean, I'm more into guys than girls? I have no idea. Does it mean I'm bisexual? I'm not sure. I've struggled to figure out who I really am for a while now, and I've never really talked to anyone close to me about my struggles. I just don't know what my friends or family will think of me if I tried expressing to them my confusion. I guess I'm just too scared to start a conversation with them. Perhaps that's why I'm typing all this out here. In any case, while trying to figure myself out, I thought maybe I'll know by watching straight and gay porn to see what turns me on. In both cases, I got aroused, and that just lead me into more confusion. Although, I do find myself watching more gay porn than straight porn. However, that might just be because I'm a bit put off by the constant moaning in straight porn. I don't know, maybe trying to figure myself out by the kind of porn I watch is ridiculous. This is just so overwhelming. Maybe if I try to ask someone out on a date, whether it be a girl or a guy, I'll figure things out. The problem with that though is that I have no idea how to go about that either. As I mentioned before, I have no experience with these kinds of things. That might seem ridiculous as I'm 22, but I just have no confidence in myself. I guess that's a whole other story. In any case, this is my first forum post talking about how I feel, and I may have rambled on so please forgive me if there's some forum etiquette I'm breaking. I'm just wondering if other people feel what I feel right now, or have had a similar experience. I guess that's it for this post, and it's time to see if someone will actually see this, let alone reply.
Hi there, welcome to the forums. It looks like you have a pretty clear understanding of your desires, you watch both gay and straight porn (the fake moaning can be a turn off for many people), get aroused by both. I suppose you have thoughts of both genders when masturbating (not necessarily at the same time), am I correct? All in all, it seems you're confident in your desires, no denial, which is an excellent thing! I'd say perhaps you're putting too much pressure on yourself for a label - I've done this to myself. You don't have to rush to a conclusion, take the time you need to feel comfortable. I think you're probably bisexual, but is this something you feel uncomfortable acknowledging if true? Also, remember that bisexuality is a spectrum, it doesn't mean you'll necessarily bear equal attraction to each gender. I'm going through a period of confusion myself, although for other reasons, but it has been improving, people on these forums are really supportive. Feel free to continue posting, and no, you didn't break any "etiquette", we're here to help each other.
