Here's the thing, I know I'm a Panromantic transman (lovin' as a guy) but I'm confused as hell as to what my sexuality is. :help: I've been thinking that I'm either Demisexual which requires a strong emotional bond for me to feel any sexual attraction to anyone or Pansexual or how I define it, "Everyone is beautiful to me despite gender expression, etc" but...I don't know. My confusing thoughts: -I can get off to porn (hetero, homo, trans, etc), erotic literature as well as Yaoi, and Yuri (although, I've noticed my body has an instant reaction to Yaoi). -I'm attracted to a pretty face...or amazing body but it doesn't make me want to rip off anyone's clothes. I might just stare in awe and then give you a -I've only had one serious crush which was in middle school on a guy and it was a weird kind of crush. I think the most intimate thing I wanted to do with him was hold his hand and but other than that, when I was actually around him it was mostly awkward. I didn't really feel attracted to him in real time, but in my thoughts, :icon_redf I was smitten. -Actually, I have alot of crushes on my friends (which I know is a demisexual trait) but I don't want to have sex with them. :eusa_naug It's just I think my friends are beautiful people inside and out and I admire them. -I can talk about sex and things pertaining to it like I'm commenting on yesterday's weather (both online and in person) -I got pretty horny when I was chatting with a man who wanted to be the "woman" as he put it in our conversation and I won't go into details about what we talked about it, but it actually really excited me...that and the fact he called me Master. :***: sorry if that was TMI. *bows in apology* Gomen nasai! However, that got me thinking, could I have done all those things I did or said in real life? Maybe? And if I could, would I still be as aroused? I think that's all my confusing thoughts at the moment...so :help: before I go crazy..:bang: -AJ.
