when i was 5 i would get crushes girls i kissed 2. i also kissed a boy. when i was littler i saw a man on tv and i thought he was atreactive. when i was 9 i saw men kissing on tv and go. when i was in third grade i devopled a huge crush on a girl when i was in 5th grade i started watching soft core porn gay & lesbain. which shifted to gay & lesbain "REAL" porn when i was in 6th and 7th grade. in math in 7th grade i use to look at this girl and get an erection thinking about having sex with her. 8th grade i didnt really watch gay porn i did but not as offten i got this girlfriend and i use to kiss her on the buss and she would rub me and stuff down there and we would right love notes to eachother and i woukd get a warm feeling and we attempted sex once and it hurt her really bad so we stopped. but i masturbated myself on her belly. after that i got this other girlfriend and i did stuff to her mostly and she would enjoy it and i would andshe would give me hand jobs and stuff but i was really nervous becaues it was in a public area so i never came. and then we broke up and i got another girl friend and we would just make out but she would rub me down there to the point it felt like i was going to explode. then 9th grade i didnt really have an urge to watch gay porno i did maybe a few times a handful. so i got this one girlfriend and she gave me hand jobs and blow jobs i always got off. and then we broke up and i made out with a few girls here and there i got erections but we never did anything else. then i met my girlfriend. i dont think there has been a moment when ive been with her when i havent thought about sex. she has given me 10 plus bjs and hj and we have had sex 3 times. so basically one of the times i had watched gay porn my friend saw he never told anyone but that left me questioning and i asked a guy to experiment with me but i never followed threw i didnt really want to i guess idk im just really confused.
To me it sounds like you are mostly straight as you think of sex with girls and think about sex with your girlfriend almost all the time you're with her. I think that what describes it the best is straight but curious. But in 9th grade you are still young (15 or 16 right?) so don't be in a rush to stick a label on yourself. You actually never have to stick a label on yourself and just go with whatever you're feeling. If you get a girlfriend and you're happy and feel sexualy attracted to her then go for it but if one day you feel attracted to a guy then you are free to do that also.
