So for a while i have had anxiety on whether or not I am straight gay or bisexual. The reason i feel as though i doubt my straight identity is because i have watched and masterbated to gay porn as well as gay things. However, i have also masterbated to girl on girl porn and straight porn as well as girls. I do have a girlfriend and i am pretty sure that i do love her but i get bad anxiety when i think that i am not truly straight and that i will be gay in the future. It is a fear of mine to live my life now and then find out that i have been gay all along. My girlfriend and i do have sex and i do enjoy it and am able to ejaculate from it. It beats all porn and masterbating by myself. Yet, I still get anxiety over the fact that i could be gay and not know it. I try to figure out what i am by masterbating to gay things and i am able to ejaculate but the when i masterbate to a girl everything feels better. I do not know if i am making myself think that it feels better or it simply does. Whenever i masterbate over anything gay i never feel fully satisfied i feel 'eh' after. But for the girls everything feels good. i do not get the eh factor. Anyways I don't really have urges to watch the gay things but i only do to test what my sexuality is and i am able to masterbate to it which leaves me confused. Also i am able to have sex with a girl and enjoy it and not last super long because it feels great. I do think i am in love with my girlfriend as i can not picture my life without her in it which is another reason why i get nervous. I don't want to start a relationship get married and end up finding out that i never truly loved the women when i feel i do love her. I may be bipolar so i do not know if this has to do with it but i really wish that i could go an hour or even a day not worrying about this. I wouldn't mind being gay but i truly can not see myself with a man for the rest of my life. I mean no offense to anyone on here. I am a supporter of gay rights and have family and friends who i support. Please and thank you for your response I'm sure they will be a hug help
I think you're going about this the wrong way. I'm gay, and if I tug my dick enough while watching lesbian porn, eventually I will ejaculate. However, I don't *want* to watch lesbian porn. I don't *want* to watch straight porn. I *want* to watch gay porn because I find men attractive. So, you need to stop worrying about the fact that you can get off to gay things. I can get off to straight and lesbian things, but it doesn't make me any less gay. I'm gay because I find men sexually attractive. I like being with them sexually. I have no desire to be with women sexually. Women do not turn me on. If you have fantasies about guys, get turned on thinking about/looking at guys, etc, then you very well might not be straight. Hope that helps!
