Okay, I don't mean to get all Freudian here, but... Just to give a little background: I was a late bloomer sexually/ kind of repressed, and didn't have my first sexual experience until a year ago, at age 21, with a guy. Up until that point, I'd taken it for granted that I was straight. But afterwards, once I started actually reflecting on my sexuality, I suddenly became aware of a physical attraction to girls too-- it was like my eyes had been opened and I started feeling turned on by girls in person/in fantasies/on screen, etc. I haven't acted on it at all, but have just let it marinate in my mind for the past several months-- trying to probe out my thoughts and let myself get acclimated to the possibility that I *might* be bisexual. Anyway, very recently, my...fantasies have shifted a bit. I've gone from thinking about being with guys and girls-- as a girl, to fantasizing/masturbating to the thought of having a penis/being a guy and having sex with a girl. It just seems so exciting, and powerful. But also a little depressing, because...I don't have a penis. I'm mostly confused by it all, because I myself like to feel fairly feminine, and I tend to be slightly more on the submissive side sexually when with a guy-- I prefer a dude who can take control. I'm only attracted to guys who are strong and masculine...but then I'm attracted to girls who are stereotypically feminine. And the idea of dominating a girl appeals to me (not like BDSM style, but just being the dominant one in the dynamic). I guess it's kind of hard to reconcile these two concepts in my head? I wonder if it's really a question of power. Is it that I can't help wondering about what it would feel like to be the "powerful" one-- the one who penetrates, rather than being penetrated-- the one who takes rather than being taken? And just the other night, I had a one night stand with a guy who was very small statured and a little submissive...I thought we had good chemistry personality-wise, but in bed, I was zero percent turned on, and actually felt bad about it...He had a great time-- but I had absolutely no physical reaction to anything he tried. I think my enthusiasm to salvage what to me felt like terrible sex with a great person perhaps was read by him as pleasure on my part. Anyway...rambling now. But overall, I'm just confused, ha.
I sort of get what you mean. A lot of people just automatically think of men as being dominant and women as being submissive... so desire to be dominant is probably confusing your brain and making you wish you were male. Kinda like how I feel more powerful when I where boyish clothes, perhaps? That's what it sounds like to me anyway. As for your sexuality, it sounds to me like you're bi.
I'm transgender, when I was young and thought I was a girl, I always wished that I had a penis and I didn't have boobs, now i've come to terms with the fact I'm trans and I'm going down the medical path to change my genitals
I know EXACTLY how you feel. I've ALWAYS had fantasies about me being a male and having sex with a girl. I don't masterbate though, considering I'm 13 and scared to death of the thought of having a penis inside of me. But if I could CHOOSE if I had a penis or a vagina, I would definitely choose a penis. Mainly because I NEVER want to go through sex, considering I've heard that it hurts. I'd much rather be the one inside of the vagina. And also because then I wouldn't have to deal with my PERIOD. I also wish I had no boobs. I just hate my boobs... Maybe I want be a boy? I don't know. (As you can tell, I think very maturely for my age.)
My partner and I both joke that we'd like to have a magic wand that would temporarily grant one of us a penis for an evening now and then. (We're both bisexual, it's worth noting...so that makes sense.) But would I want one permanently attached? Never!
I've definitely thought about it. But ultimately I don't think I want one. I think I feel the same way as you though
I have thought about it. The thought of being with a woman sexually and having a penis is kind of a turn on. I wouldn't want one permanently though. I like having a V way too much.
Yes, just to make sex simple mostly though. And make traveling easier. And up my preconceived value in the work place. And have natural upper body strength. And be able to go places without worrying about someone wanting to rape me. And not be in terrible bloody pain for 1 week every month. Those things would be nice.
No.. Not really.. I like my boobs and my other area. I do sometimes fantasize about using a strapon/having it used on me but I would never want one for real. I have a desire to dominate a woman just like you but we can achieve it in so many other ways.. I can understand how you feel in a small way but.. No honestly I don't think i've ever wished to have a penis. Go with your feelings though!
No, never. I wouldn't mind using a strapon though, could be interesting. The good part is you can take it off afterwards.
I'm not Transgender however I do wish that I were a woman half the time. This is odd but whenever I think of sex with women I always see the pleasure from their perspective if that makes any sense, like if I were having sex with a woman I would be thinking about the pleasure she is getting from me. Likewise if I watch straight porn I'm enjoying if from the woman's perspective but not In a gay way? none of this makes any sense at all and I haven't be able to interpret it yet. Women just seem more sensual.
I think it'd be fun. It'd be interesting and I think it'd change my perspective on the world. It'd be cool to live in a world where you can shift in and out of another body, so you could spend some time in the body of another gender (or body type or race or something). Luckily in this world there are double-ended dildos, so there are ways to enjoy flexibility in gender roles.
i love being a girl. I'm femme (look wise) but boyish personality. Act like a wee lad and I'm dopey! and i don't do dresses etc (except maybe once a year to shock people) but i love makeup and doing my hair and being a girl in general! 100% i am not transgender because i know this. But i wish i had a penis. I really do! Lol Sex wise i want to penetrate it turns me on even the thought. I love every other part of lesbian sex but penetration is on a different level. Id love to have a penis in that sense, but also be a guy in the sense of feeling like one of them, best mates are guys i get on way better with guys when it comes to making friends. And keeping them! Hate drama (experience not based on stereotypes!) And the final reason is a bit of a depressor but valid point for me wanting a penis. I grew up in care and was on streets as a teen where an assault happened and in past year found out i cant have kids. But anyway, after that comment to depress and put a downer on this thread, Menstruation! Time of the month! Every girl will agree that it is hassle and horrible and can hurt like hell. But its needed, for future bearing of kids. I cant have them! So penis =equals no monthly pmsing and getting irritated by everything and everyone for no reason except mother natures week of hate. Yet i couldn't be a guy, id miss everything about being a woman ! Its just so much more logical and convenient for me to have male parts , despite the fact theyr a bit weird and wrinkly and funny looking and gross. Am i losin it or does anyone else get what i mean?
