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Confused about my sexuality

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by EpicConfusion, Aug 17, 2014.

  1. EpicConfusion

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    Hello :slight_smile: I'm new to EC and I just today. I have striving to understanding my sexuality for about six months. More now. I think I might be bisexual, but I'm not sure that I'm not gay yet either. All I know is that I'm pretty sure I'm not straight. I'm a 17 year old guy going into 12th grade this year. I like both guys and girls, but I haven't ever been sexually aroused by a man. As I'm sure everyone has, I have masturbated to porn and or pictures of scantily clad people. Only women and straight porn though. I never really had any doubt in my mind that I was straight until I began having is fantasy about a year ago that I would marry my girlfriend at the time ( she has since broken up with me )and that we would meet a man, both fall in love with him and enter in a polygamous relationship. I fantasized that I would be the bottom when I had sex with the man. That was when I knew I wasn't straight. I started masturbating at the age of 12, and I always had a problem with it. It felt wrong morally. I also have a problem with porn, even though I have watched it a handful of times. Recently this summer, I made a homemade dildo of sorts with pen for a handle, and the body is was a plastic file handle. I know that probably doesn't sound too comfortable, but believe me; it works like a charm. Once I figured out how to comfortably masturbate while using it, I couldn't just use my hand anymore. I takes a lot of effort to get aroused with just my hand now. And the orgasms are at least 5-10x as intense as before. It took me a while to become comfortable with my sexuality; I'm OK with masturbation now. That was when I really stated thinking that I might be Gay. (And yes, I know, being penetrated is not an exclusively gay thing for men.) Being penetrated has always been one of my biggest fantasies. Before I had the fantasy of being with a man and a woman, I had one about being pegged by a woman with a strap-on. I started working this summer, and I met is adorable guy whom I instantly had a crush on the moment I saw him. He was really tall, short blonde hair, and skinny. He later told me he was gay. I never pursued a relationship with him because he is going to college in another state and he only came up here to see his parents this summer. Before then, I had never really been attracted to a man. That was another moment I knew I wasn't straight. I have had four girlfriends, but I've never had sex before. I'm attracted to girls, but I can't tell if it's purely an aesthetic way. And like I said, I'm not sexually attracted to men. At least not in porn. I tried to watch gay porn and I didn't like it. Attractive men are, to me, few and far between. I find the idea of being gay and with a man to be enticing, and I'm interested to try to find a boyfriend. I really just wish I knew if I'm gay, bi, or just curious. Ask me some questions that might better help you understand my situation and I'll try my best to answer. Your input is greatly appreciated. :help: :bang:
     
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    I'm in a similar situation. I started masturbating when I was 11, and actually hit puberty right before that so I guess that might have been normal...maybe. But anyways I'm attracted to guys and girls, get turned on by both, in real life and with porn. I think that you might just be curious, and that all guys have fantasies that may or may not make any sense. But if you are attracted to guys, then go ahead and date them, kiss them, see what it feels like. If you decide that it feels weird, or wrong, then you're simply a straight yet curious guy. Good luck!
     
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    Thanks for the input :slight_smile: I doubt I'm into find a boyfriend here though... I live in a really small town. But hey, you never know...
     
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    Well I've been paying close attention to the people that I see during my day that I find attractive, (I work in a grocery store so I see A LOT of people, plus school started today) and I'm definitely bisexual.