Ok, so I'm a 16 year old male and finally after hours of Googling, I'm asking on here. So, I'll give some background: - When I was like ~5, my best guy friend at the time and I used to get naked and we would take turns getting on each other and kissing. At the time, I don't think I actually knew what I was doing but I do remember not wanting my mom to know. - At the same age, I used to try and get this girl to kiss me behind her bed. Again, I don't think I knew what I was doing. - A little later in my life, I played truth or dare with this guy and we both dared each other to kiss. (Again, I don't really think I *knew* what was going on. - Around middle school, I only had attractions to girls. I remember this one particular crush with a 7th grade while I was in 6th. - Around this time, I discovered masturbation. This thing I first masturbated to was a picture of a topless girl. I also masturbated to lesbian/straight porn. - Fast forward to 9th grade... I sat next to this girl and liked looking at her breasts (she always leaned over, lol) - Through 9th and 10th, I developed a crush for a girl I work with... I thought (and still sometimes think) about an emotional/sexual relationship. - Here's where I get confused: I've got a good friend that I've hung out with for years: I don't remember how it started... but sometimes I get excited thinking about him. Whenever I see him in person, I'm not like OMG what a cute guy/but/crotch but when I think about it in my head.. I get horny sometimes. I remember being next to him like three times and getting really turned on (not necessarily by his looks just the thought of sex or whatevs) and I had to leave to go masturbate. - I've NEVER had a 'crush' on a guy. I don't feel uneasy/nervous around them at all. I've never gotten an erection from looking at a guy nor do I find myself staring at their butts/crotches. - I DO find myself staring at girls' butts and boobs, and probably getting erections sometimes (I can't remember... maybe I'm just good at controlling my erections?) - I DO get the 'hots' for girls and get sweaty/nervous when talking to pretty girls that I like. - Recently, I have developed a crush for a girl in a few of my classes. I get nervous around her and definitely imagine being her boyfriend. However, I find it difficult to get erections/think about sex with her (maybe it's because she doesn't have super large breasts/booty?) - About a year or so ago, I started masturbating ALOT to porn (straight porn mostly. I generally stopped watching lesbian porn). - I feel like watching a boatload of regular porn caused me to get super bored of the generic porn actress, so I found myself getting excited to gay porn sometimes. - My gay porn experiences started with only erotica text but I have watched legitimate gay porn a few times. (Not often at all). - However, since yesterday I found myself getting really turned on by gay thoughts and stuff. Earlier I went on ****** and found gay dudes to kik with just to get dick pics... - It's weird because I don't feel this way in real life about other guys. I play baseball and that has all the 'hot' guys (I don't find them attractive). - I feel like my occasional obsession with gay stuff is due to my overwatching of straight porn, and my irrational obsession with having a larger penis (I'm average). So... TL;DR I don't have the hots for guys; only girls... yet sometimes I'm attracted to penis (not the male body really.) I'm attracted to girls most of the time in every aspect.. Why do I get attracted to gay stuff sometimes? Is it because my hormones are going crazy?
It might be hormones, it might just be an interest in the human body in general; maybe it indicates a capacity to be bisexual, or maybe it doesn't. Even if you're 100% straight, overall this sounds totally normal to me. I bet a lot of guys your age have similar experiences, they just aren't talked about for fear of sounding like they're questioning their sexuality. I commend you for being an open-minded guy and maintaining an objective mindset!
The porn you watch doesn't determine your sexuality. From what you said, you could be bisexual, but it doesn't seem like it. I agree, it's probably just hormones. I used to look at some weird porn when "normal" porn got boring. Maybe try looking into different porn, whether it be gay, bondage, hentai etc., or just take a break from porn all together.
