Hey, all. Here with a few thoughts/questions, wondering if anyone can relate. After spending most of my life assuming I was straight, given exclusively dating and having mostly happy relationships with men, I recently came out as bi after becoming involved with a female co-worker. We've been together for about two months now and we really, really like each other. I feel the big L word coming on. This relationship was really unexpected. I hadn't closed myself off to the idea of dating a woman, but I had never met anyone I was attracted to enough to want to, so I thought it would never happen. She knocked me entirely off-balance and had me agonizing over what to wear to work within days of exchanging our first hellos. Lately, I've been questioning my orientation again. I still have a lot of fantasies as always, but they have become exclusively populated by women. It's really difficult for me to imagine being happy again with a man and I don't check them out the way I used to. I don't feel that "Oooh, he's cute" tingle when I see a guy I'd normally find attractive. I don't know if that's because I am so smitten with my girlfriend, or if it's because I am turning away from men altogether. I suppose I never imagined I could be a full-on lesbian because I have felt intense sexual/romantic attraction to men for years. Looking back though, even in the honeymoon phase of my previous relationships, there was always a 'but' with regard to my attraction/affection for them, and despite my current relationship being so new, I don't feel that way with my girlfriend at all. I adore everything about her. And sexually...well, there's a definite difference there too. I feel much more satisfied with her than I ever have with a man. What do you think of this? Got any similar experiences/advice to share? I know I don't have to have it figured out ASAP...just wanted to get these thoughts out there and start working to make some sense of them.
