I'm a 19-year-old man & I've been questioning my sexuality for too much time... When I was young I had feelings toward women. I had many crushes & some girlfriends. But since I was 13 I started being confused. It all started when I was 13 & wanted to be stronger & muscular to help myself be more comfident & achieve my dream. I started looking at photos of bodybuilders online to imagine how I want to look like, but then it turned into a little addiction to gay porn. I still had feelings to girls & watched straight porn, but I started questioning my sexuality. Ever since, I've been through a rollercoaster of emotions: I sometimes find myself only interested in straight porn, sometimes only gay porn, somtimes both & sometimes neither. I've noticed I'm mostly interested in gay porn than straight porn, but was never attracted to men & only to women. I checked guys out (rarely), but never felt attracted to a man in real life, only to pornstars. But I was attracted to women (& sometimes still have feelings coming back toward my ex-girlfriend). I'm sorry if it sounds homophobic or hurtful, this is NOT my intention, but the thought of being touched by another man or touching another man's penis really disturb me. I don't care if I'm straight, bi or pan (actually, I'd preffer being bi or pan), but I just don't see myself living with a man. I really need an advise...
Hello! Porn doesn't define one's sexuality properly. Some people who are gay do not like gay porn at all. If you find yourself not being attracted to men in real life, not wanting to ever start a relationship because it grosses you out, you are very likely straight and not even bisexual. Cheers, Quem
