Hi everyone, At a young age (11 or 12) I started 'practicing' sexual activities with friends. Although in their young eyes it truly was just 'practicing' (these friends have grown older to identify as straight), I really enjoyed these activities and thought about it constantly. As I grew a little older, I became very curious about lesbian sex - I secretly read library books describing oral sex between lesbians, strap-on sex, and dildo play. I was intrigued and turned on by what I read but didn't really understand why. At age 15, I discovered lesbian internet porn and to this day it is the only thing I can successfully masturbate to. In college, I had romantic relationships with men and I WAS attracted to them BOTH emotionally and somewhat sexually. I say 'somewhat' because although I don't mind sex with a man, I simply don't get turned on as quickly and easily as I do when I think about sex with women (but can still get turned on somewhat). Despite being attracted to some men, I feel like the connection I have with them is more emotional/romantic. To this day, I want to meet the man of my dreams and hopefully have a sexual healthy relationship with him. However, I can't ignore my sexual desires for women - I feel that they are only growing stronger. I very rarely choose to fantasize about men sexually, but rather do women. I would choose a woman with a strapon over MOST men any day (I definitely have some men I'd choose over women). I have never been sexually intimate with a woman but I definitely desire to. I feel that I may be either bisexual or a biromantic lesbian. What do you all think? Thanx in advance...
You could easily be either of those. It could just be you have a stronger preference towards females, or that you're biromantic but not bisexual. Do you feel sexual attraction to men? Its not really if you like the sex, but if to want the sex to happen in the first place. If you do feel the attraction, then you are bi/bi.
You could be both, but you have to try it to be sure.. However I am still unsure, despite the fact I have had actual sex with a woman. I suspect I might be bi, but it could as well be only my imagination. I envy those people who are 100% sure of their orientation The fact that you wish to find the right man could be both your desire or simply the thing society wants you to do. Sometimes it is difficult to tell these two things apart..
It sounds like you might need a little bit more experience dating a variety of people to decide what you really want out of life. I wish I had acted on more of my attractions when I was younger, but I was already in a LT relationship with my now husband in high school and pretty locked in by college.
