I know before I have mentioned about my attraction to girls turning into anxiety because of religion saying it's wrong - And now, it's so bad, that my anxiety even happens when I'm attracted to guys, like every time I attracted to males, I automatically go to thinking it makes me straight, and I want that to please my religious parents, but then I start to think about my attractions to girls right after being attracted to a male and then I'm freaking over what I am - I am pretty sure I'm panromantic (just a little bit questioning), but it's just so weird that I can't explain it - Either way, it's been bothering me to no end. I'm just so tired of being so obsessed with my sexuality or what gender I'm attracted to - Like, I know it's not even an issue, it's just me being attracted to a person, but at the same time, it drives me crazy! So much to the fact that I wish I didn't have attractions to anyone. Basically, if what I said before was too confusing, what's making me upset is one, my parents aren't accepting of LGBT people, two, I constantly over-analyze my sexuality and secretly obsessed with if I'm using the right label, three, I'm scared my sexuality's going to change from maybe pan to gay or to anything else, and I don't want that to happen because my parents, or even worse, that I change to being emotionally straight and although I want that, at the same thing, after a whole year of questioning and feeling like my parents hate me, I just want my sexuality to stay the same yet people always say it could change... Okay, I know I'm not making much sense, because, just can someone help me not freak out about my sexuality regardless of what it is? Because at this point, I want to have no sexuality. I keep thinking about my sexuality so much, it's affecting me in every aspect of my life. I just want to not need a label and not need my parents acceptance. I don't want the anxiety to keep making having a crush on someone a painful experience and I just want to be happy. Please help if you can.
Hugs for you! That's really all I got. Although have you read a book called "God and the gay christian" ? Its written by Matthew vines and has been very helpful to me in reconciling my faith with my sexuality.
Hugs for you! That's really all I got. Although have you read a book called "God and the gay christian" ? Its written by Matthew vines and has been very helpful to me in reconciling my faith with my sexuality.
Hugs for you! That's really all I got. Although have you read a book called "God and the gay christian" ? Its written by Matthew vines and has been very helpful to me in reconciling my faith with my sexuality.
Hugs for you! That's really all I got. Although have you read a book called "God and the gay christian" ? Its written by Matthew vines and has been very helpful to me in reconciling my faith with my sexuality.
Hugs for you! That's really all I got. Although have you read a book called "God and the gay christian" ? Its written by Matthew vines and has been very helpful to me in reconciling my faith with my sexuality. ---------- Post added 22nd Oct 2014 at 03:45 PM ---------- Oops....so sorry....can somebody remove my duplicate posts?
Thanks for the hugs *hugs you back* I know my post was confusing, but it was so hard explaining it all really >< And I've heard of it, but never read it - To be honest, it won't matter until my parents will accept it :/
You aren't alone. That is exactly what I'm doing. I feel like I'm always on the fence; one day feeling all straight and happy, then gay/bi the next day. It's quite annoying actually. Yup, couldn't agree more. They say that sexuality is fluid, and while I don't disagree, I find it extremely irritating. It's like I'm always sitting on the fence, unable to decide anything. I guess it all comes down to who you want to be with for the rest of your life. I think that's the challenge everyone on the forum faces. It's not whether or not you like the D or the V, it's about that person as an individual; a human being. Try to look at it that way. My trouble though, is finding out with which gender would I find true happiness in: Males, or females? And I try to put aside porn as a factor, of course. It's difficult though, because I don't even know why the things in porn arouse me. I mean, more than half of the stuff I watch doesn't even happen in real, loving relationships. Not the best advice I can give you, but just remember that you're not the only one experiencing this. Time will tell. I always remind myself that.
I know right? It's just-- Ugh, yes, extremely annoying and aggravating >< And yes, while I agree that sexuality is fluid, for me, I don't want my sexuality to be fluid - I already don't like liking things about both genders as it is! I need no more change in my life. No, your advice is good! I'm glad you took the time to reply, I really appreciate it! I always do feel alone in this, like that's what makes it worse - I feel like I'm worrying and freaking over things that other people don't have care about. But it's nice to know that I'm not alone now! Again, thank you so much!! I hope things get better for you too
I still recommend reading it, as it may help you explain it to your parents in a way they might accept. At least when/if they start throwing the antigay bible verses at you, you'll have a way of explaining them. Maybe get them to read the book, though I'm sure that's unlikely.
