I'm unsure about my sexuality. I'm an 18yo boy and all my life I have always liked both men and women. I masterbate to both gay and straight porn, and I fantasise about fucking both. I really like anal stuff, which is part of why I think I like gay porn, and I like to use a dildo sometimes although for some reason I feel bad about it afterwards. It's not that I feel guilty, I just always think i am going to like it more than I do. I like the thoughts of having sex with a man but I couldn't picture myself being in a relationship or loving a man, whereas I would like to date a girl. I would be accepted if I were gay so I'm not worried about that. Anyone else go something similar to this?
Well you seem bisexual to me >_> Also, you can actually have a different romantic orientation from your sexual orientation.
Our sexuality can be complicated and many of us need to go through a process of working out our feelings. For some people it happens very quickly and they arrive at a conclusion without much trouble, but for others there is an extended period of questioning and experimentation. If you are stuck at that point of questioning right now, don't rush to pigeon hole yourself. If you do need to experiment sexually to arrive at a conclusion, give yourself permission to do it (just do it safely). Using a dildo can bring a certain amount of pleasure and relief, but it's not the same as having sex. With another person you can experiment with different positions and levels of intensity to find what works best for you, and it can/should feel a lot more satisfying. Having said that, I noticed this comment in your posting and it makes me wonder if you actually prefer the idea of topping rather than bottoming when it comes to anal sex? If you are not really keen on the idea of being penetrated and prefer to do the fucking that may help to explain why using a dildo feels "bad". What do you think? When you are thinking about your sexuality, does it cross your mind that you may be bisexual, rather than gay or straight? You didn't mention the possibility at all in your posting, so I'm wondering if it's occurred to you? Even amongst bisexual people there are preferences. Give yourself time to consider what you really want. There is no necessity to label yourself and it's better to go through this process now than rush into a relationship and find you have made a big mistake. Hope this helps.
