Hey, I'm 20 years old and have always considered myself straight. I like girls both physically and romantically and have sex with 18 of them. I have never experimented with guys, but I find myself fantasizing about it a lot recently. I'm not really attracted to guys, except the idea of a sweaty chiseled, muscly guy holding me sounds really hot. I have tried ass play and I like it, I just don't know how much I'd like taking a full dick or fucking a guy in the ass. Kissing a guy though seems really gross to me. I have never had any crushes on guys before, whereas girls I find myself falling head over heels for a lot. Also gay porn really turns me on. I'm really thinking about experimenting, and just kinda want some insight. How did you first go about it? What are some stories? Does this seem like gay behavior, or just normal homoerotic fanaticism? Anything helps. Thanks.
Hi and welcome. Congrats on having an open mind about your attractions. That is really the first step to self understanding. It is possible you are gay. It is also possible you are bi. It can be hard to discern at first because your unconscious gets in the way and can create resistance or revulsion to some of the 'gay' acts, even though you might otherwise find them attractive So exploring sounds like a good idea. Start by just exploring in your mind -- trying to keep an open mind -- what it might be like. You might try masturbating without porn and seeing where you fantasies take you. And then, if it interests you, explore dating a guy. But go slow and listen to your intuition. Please keep us informed and feel free to continue to post and ask questions. Good luck in your journey!
