I've always been attracted to women as far back as I can remember. Recently, I've been questioning whether or not I'm straight or bisexual. You see, the past couple of weeks have had me in a mode of sexual frustration. Maybe being 19.5 years of age and never being in a relationship (or having sex) with anyone has started to mess with me. It makes me feel like I want to lose my virginity and at this point, I don't care who I lose it to. Just as long as it's consensual. Anyways, I want to hook up with others to experiment with my sexuality. To see what I like and what I don't like. And I mean this with sex with both guys and with girls. In fact, I almost experimented with a guy last week. What happened? I was getting too attached and since I've need to sort out personal problems of my own (dealing with others correctly with my autism), I can honestly say that I'm not ready for a relationship right now. So, I called it off so I can focus on myself for right now. I'm not ruling out experimenting with a guy or with a girl at some point. But right now, it would have to be casual sex because I am not in a state-of-mind that would be beneficial to a relationship with anyone. And as for that, it would have to be spontaneous and possibly alcohol-induced. Which is VERY shaky ground on my college for two reasons. The first is that I am under the legal drinking age (but I have had a good bit of alcohol since I came to college). The second is obtaining consent before the intoxication. When I joined EC, I did so as a supporter. I did not think that I would be questioning my own sexuality at any point. I have told only a select few outside of EC about this. However, if the experimentation does indeed prove that I'm bisexual, then I'll make a wooden closet, chop it up into pieces, and use it as firewood. Because I'd be free.
Hey, good luck figuring it out. Be careful with any hookups lots of creeps out there who will just take advantage of you. I would definitely take care of your inner issues before you try a serious relationship. I didn't and I'm regretting it now.
Yeah. I've decided to narrow down the age of my sexual partners to 18-22. So, college-aged. It's not that I have anything against older people, but it seems slightly uncomfortable to have a middle-aged man in my bed when I'm not middle-aged.
Yeah, be careful with that "don't care who you loose it to" attitude. 1st girlfriend, pretty much the girl I had a crush on since 10th grade, who I lost it to between Freshman and Sophomore year at school, used me the day after I lost it, to drive her to her future fiances house... DEV-A-STATING I'd just as soon she not bothered, and just said, hey can you give me a lift. You could try any of the gay/bi social media sites out there to find someone to experiment with.
I don't plan on having it with anyone I have a crush on. And I tried a site that started with G and ended with rindr. I had nobody but a bunch of guys well past their 50's hitting on me. When I explicitly said that I was only interested in people that were 18-22 years old. I got sick of it. So I am doing it anon. I'm not giving it up.
Yeah, I can understand that, I'd probably be one of those hitting on you... You didn't find anyone around your own age down there? You need to move up here to Indy, there's tons of 18-25 year olds. I've got one 18 yo in an adjoining hotel room... Also, you have to be very forward on places like that. If you see someone who tickles your fancy, you need to make the first move. They should really make it so you can filter out who can contact you on those sites. So, if you really don't want someone of a certain characteristic you just wont ever show on their list... << maybe I should develop the next social hookup platform >>
I never thought I would be questioning my sexuality at all either. It's started this summer when I ended my first relationship. And a first time for anything can put a significant impact on your future, for better or for worse. I talked to my psychologist yesterday, and we both concluded that porn has inadvertently affected my life. So whether I am gay, straight, or bi, I need to figure this out first before even getting a green light to step two: relationships. I guess time will tell. I want to experiment with both genders sexually, but then I think, won't it feel good anyways? I mean, its sex. When does sex NOT feel good (when both get consent of course).
For me, when it's just physical, it's not nearly as intense as when there's an emotional component. And if you're not into whoever you're trying to be with, it can just be downright uncomfortable.
Maybe that's why things were only feeling not-so-good last night. I was only doing it for sex and experimentation. Neither of us cummed, either. I am not against wanting to do it again with someone, but I'd rather it be with someone I've known for a while. It's just that a lot of guys aren't open about their sexuality. And if so, they want relationships out of this.
i could possibly help but my body isnt physically male it depressses my male side of my gender fluid mind
