Hi, When I was a teen I was out as a lesbian and was very happy with the lifestyle and my girlfriend at the time. Then my parents found out and were disgusted and banned me from seeing my girlfriend again and I became so ashamed of myself. I eventually married a man and often fantasised about women when I was with him. I have now left him and still have feelings and attractions for women... But although I'm accepting of my gay and lesbian friends I'm scared of the prospect of being a lesbian... What are your views?
I think it's understandable. It's easier to accept that "others are gay" then "I'm gay", especially after your parents reaction. There's nothing to be ashamed about being attracted to women though. I'd recommend you to read some posts here on the forum, at least you'll realize you're far from alone who feels the same way. It may be a good start, I believe. (*hug*)
Thanks Paris! I think I'm struggling so much because I feel I have no one to talk to... Thank goodness for sites like this!
Thanks for the suggestion I don't think I'm ready for that yet but its certainly worth thinking about!
Online is a good segue. I've been out as some form of "not straight" for 12 years, and a public group meeting still kinda makes me nervous. : /
"not ready for it yet" is a fine place to be. we progress along this path at whatever rate works for us. or we stay in the same place for a while and just rest there, and that is fine too. I have that same problem of being very open and accepting of gays, but it took me much longer to accept that I am gay. but I think that my openness to others is what eventually made it possible for me to show that same love and acceptance to myself. love and acceptance is good no matter what, and it can only lead to more good things in our lives.
