i think there's something wrong with me. wonder if it can be identified.

i am attracted to girls and boys...but with their clothes on.
i am disgusted by dicks and vaginas.
i am disgusted with my own vagina.
i am disgusted by the thought of oral sex.
for a while i didnt like to kiss...until i kissed my girlfriend for the first time.
i love holding my girlfriends hand. i love holding her.
but i am not interested in having sex with her.
getting naked and foreplay is as far as ill go.
she wants to have sex. but i dont want to. i think its disgusting.
i dont like the idea of something going inside me either.
i am not comfortable with my girlfriend touching my vagina (she hasnt, just the idea...), let alone touching it myelf.
i am not comfortable with touching hers either.
i dont know.
i feel like a freak.

 

i like her naked lol. i dont think i am sexually attracted to her. im a bit afraid to have sex with her because that would require oral sex and touching my vagina and i dont like that stuff. i guess i feel violated. idk. so asexual, huh..... i feel horrible because i cant give her what she wants. and she wants it bad. so im afraid that she'll find someone else to meet her needs

 

yea. she gets it. she wants me to touch her. and i cant get myself to do it. so she get frustrated. she knows its not her. its me. i just wish i could please her. i was the same way with guys. although, i was never comfortable with just cuddling and holding hands with clothes on.

 

thanks, i do too, what started? what are you refering to?

 

hmmmmm.... i realized i had an issue when she asked me if she could touch me there. she had to ask because she probably saw that i was uncomfortable. idk. ive always been afraid of people touching me inappropriately. since i was a little girl

 

when she asked? clothes on and off

 

yea

 

still have that issue with my girlfriend

 

yea. thanks for youre help. now i know there is a label for me. asexual.