im so confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I'm a girl in high school and I have never really taken an interest in boys. I don't find them attractive, and I can't really connect with them emotionally. Throughout elementary school and middle school I had heard of people being gay, but didn't really know what it meant and I had never seen a gay couple. But now that I am in high school I have been introduced to gay people and everything like that, I even have some close friends that are gay. For the first time in my freshman year I saw 2 girls kiss and it pretty much turned my world upside down. Before, I recognized girls that were pretty, and I felt attraction towards them, but i didn't really realize this until now. I know that I find girls attractive, and I might be gay, but what if this is just a phase? I have never even had a girlfriend, but I have had one boyfriend. How can I be sure that I am gay? Is there a way that I can get a girlfriend without everyone knowing? How do I put myself out there? Thanks