Okay... So, I know for sure I am genderfluid... I just, really dont know if Im lesbian, or bi, or straight. I used to claim I was pansexual, and after that homoflexible, and now lesbian. I honestly love females. But Ive also been trained by my family and "friends" to look at males (and I would look at males when I was in the closet and trying to hide my attraction to the same gender in ever way possible). I just dont really know if I know who I am. I recently moved out of my grandmas house, who was accepting of me to an extent. She tolerated my "life choices", to live with my aunt and uncle, who are much closer to the majority of my family, who, sadly are hardcore homophobic Christians. Im scared to be myself. I dont really even know who I am... Help..?
It can be very confusing to figure out, and quite a daunting task. I would suggest trying not to think about it too much or else you might cause yourself unneeded stress. I think about it and obsess about analyzing my sexuality and come up with reasons I am gay, or reasons I am not. It doesn't help and it just makes me feel super confused and depressed. Just try to notice subtly what's natural to you if that's clear to you? Good luck *hugs*
