I am 15, almost 16 now and I didn't even bring into consideration that I might not be straight until two or three years ago. After this amount of time of constantly exploring and pondering, I still don't have much of an answer! I'll break it down into the basics: -I have always felt a very weak attraction to males, but found them more compelling romantically. -When I hit puberty I suddenly gained a very strong attraction to females, which was a quite a surprise. However, I still find females less compatible romantically. -I seem to however flip-flop from one day to the next, finding only females immensely attractive one day, and then only males the other! And, rarely, it can be just a weak attraction to both. Very confusing. -I have had no experimentation with transgender and nonbinary folks, so saying 'pansexual' is still a question mark to me -I have only had one relationship before, and it was longdistance with a girl. However, the fact that she wasn't physically here with me just left me even more confused when we broke up as to my true sexuality. As much as I would love to agree with all the people that say 'Just relax- sexuality doesn't matter, don't worry so much' I was wondering if anyone experienced on this had some input as (I think we all understand here) these things can be stressful on your own. (Something potentially important to note here is I have a collection of chronic illnesses that leave me stuck in the house alone most of the time, so socialising outside of the internet and meeting people is becoming harder and harder for me, to make the situation more confusing.) Thank you so much!!
Hey SgtSteffi, You sound like you have much the same confusion as the rest of us. And you're right, not being able to meet people can be a bummer. If you're not at school much, you must get out some, right? Doctor's appointments and whatnot? You can still observe the people around you to see how you feel when you look at them and think about different scenarios. As you're driven around or ride public transportation, in the medical offices… It's true it doesn't matter what your sexuality is but, of course, it would be nice to have a better idea, wouldn't it? Anyway, try to take advantage of different situations just to look around and see what feelings your brain might be telling you you're having. Good Luck!
Thank you for the input And yes, I can imagine you've all heard the story a thousand times by now. I have been thinking very hard about the people I see and how I feel, but unfortunately, that has also just created confusion and given me the same 'one day male, one day female' answer...
