Questioning whether I'm straighter than I thought I was.

Btw, I'm not sure if this better belongs in the Gender Identity section, so let me know if it's posted in the wrong place and I'll move it

Okay, so I'm an 18 yr old girl and I've been very comfortable with being attracted to women emotionally, and sexually, ever since I was young. That's never been a problem, and until quite recently I identified mostly as a lesbian. I say 'mostly' because very occasionally (as in once a year at most) I'll develop a romantic crush on a guy. However, I always feel really uncomfortable even imagining doing anything sexual with guys or dating them, or even just kissing them. It just grosses me out, honestly.

But the weird thing is, I'm only uncomfortable with the thought of being physical with a man when I'm imagining myself as a woman or having the feminine role in the relationship. If I picture myself as the dominant one in the relationship, or if I picture myself taking the traditional place of a man during *cough* sex, then it just feels, well, right. I can't imagine dating a guy and acting like a traditional woman, e.g. being all lovey-dovey, wearing makeup for him, being submissive, etc. It just makes me feel horribly uncomfortable.

So basically, I can only imagine actually having a real relationship with a man if I imagine myself acting like a man. So, what does this make me? Bisexual? Straight only when I'm imagining myself as a guy? Or does it just make me a bit genderqueer? Or is this actually just a common thing for lesbians? I'm really quite confused, so any input from anyone who's ever felt similarly would be so so appreciated.

 

Thanks for the reply. It feels strange to imagine being with a man and not being the submissive one, but then again I might just be worrying too much about traditional gender roles in relationships.