hi im a 15 year old overweight mixed race extrovert guy that lives in the uk. so recently iv been showing much more interest in guys such as having much more in depth fantasies and have been masturbating to much more gay porn that usual for most of my life i have had always show a little interest in the same sex, just petty things like kissing another guy ect... but recently i have started to look at guys in a sorta new light. my attraction to guys is not really in the main body,i mostly find myself attracted to the there personality ,there faces and there genitals but that's the same for woman as well.so for the past few years i have not had a relationship with either gender and i watched porn on a ratio of 7/3 f/m.but now its more like 50/50 i now often have fantasies about giving head and being bottom but don't really have that much interest of being top.and for hetero its just the normal stuff. and i have really only had crushes on girls. this is pretty much all the information i know about myself XD also sorry about my bad grammar.:lol:
this is a part that i missed out mostly because of the embarrassment of how it happened so for the sake of simplicity ill just say that a few years ago i gave a blowjob,embarrassment out the way.i can now say that i loved it and enjoyed every second of it and would happyly do it again. :icon_redf
What helped for me (I'm a really logical person, and my romantic and sexual attractions confused me) was making a list of people I felt an attraction to (mostly girls). Then I divided it into the people I would want to get to know better (romantic orientation) and those I found sexually attractive (sexual orientation). I found that I only saw girls as being attractive and would want to know them better and spend time with them (homoromantic) and I would only think about sleeping with girls I already had a close relationship with (demisexual). After that I just watched whether my attractions and crushes changed (sexuality is fluid after all). Now I'm pretty confident about my sexuality. It definitely takes time, so don't rush it. And don't be scared of switching labels until you find the right fit. Nothing is fixed.
thanks for the reply.the main reason why im confused is because i don't find guys very physically attractive,but i do find them to be sexually and romantically attractive.i think ill just wait a bit to see if my feelings change.also i didn't know that what i felt had a word "demisexual" the more you know right
