So, now i'm sure, or almost sure, i'm a transguy. Okay, i can accept it, i can live with it and everything. But, i'm probably gay, i don't know but like i prefer guys even if it's like personality which is the most important. Anyway, i like porn but shit, i don't want to fuck or to get fucked but real people that i know in real life. I had like two or three crushes, but it's all. I don't find anyone attractive enough, it seems. I don't know how to put it's just that... I'm scared of being asexual. I mean, i'm so fucked up for my life. How will i ever be in a relationship being trans and gay and asexual. I just want to cry and to be a guy and to have a boyfriend who holds my hand and kisses me sometimes. I'm so fucking scared.
I'd say just take your time to get used to the thought. And go with a feeling of joy. Sex is something that can be shared between two people in love... and its not only genitals, it can be caressing... etc... You could have a look at this: http://emptyclosets.com/forum/gender-identity-expression/167276-being-trans*-guy-sex.html#3 ( wait with getting the toys until you're 18 ) and this, imo its not very likely you're asexual... http://emptyclosets.com/forum/sexua...how-can-i-supportive-my-asexual-sister.html#3 many hugs
you feelings and lack of experience seem to be at a pretty appropriate point for a 17 year old. Don't feel like you have to rush to get to where someone else is, or where you think you are supposed to be. enjoy life and let it happen.
For one, STOP using labels to describe yourself. You are just falling into society's trap for having people find issues with the person you are, aside from you giving yourself ammunition to berate yourself with. You are not a label, you are a person. Thats all. You are still young, figuring things out. Don't worry, you will get to the place where you want to be, and you will have figured yourself out. I was in my late 20's when I started to figure myself out. It took me three years to deal with myself and get over a bunch of shit society and stupid people had put into my head all those previous years, to that point. You are a human. Be the best human you can be. Treat people fairly and honestly, and with a little dignity. Be the best person you can be, not the best label you can be! You work at being a good person, a good human being.....work hard, be fair and understanding to the best of your abilities, and any other person worth being around you, will like/love you for the person you are.....not what labels you are. Anyone with any merit to being a decent human being will be happy to have you as a friend, or more. Anyone else who has problems with you, well...that's THEIR problem, not YOURS. Just point them to the door and tell them you hope its hits them on the way out. You don't need their lies and bullshit. You work at being a good you, and others like you will see that and want to be around you. Get rid of the labels, the stigmata's and all the other bullshit and lies that suffocate us when we are growing up. You are still young, you have lots of time to work on yourself. Don't expect it all to happen over night....good things take time. And becoming a good person takes time because you are having to relearn how to be an upright, upstanding, decent human being. Just be YOU, not a label. The more you work on you, the more you figure out what is what, the more you find out what you want in life, and the more you realize what it is you really need in your life.
Don't be scared. There are people in all kinds of relationships. You could look for someone you have something in common with, and take it from there. Just take your time... (*hug*) And there were a few threads asking if someone would date a ftm person, and many said they would
i agree with the other posters, don't feel pressured about doing something you don't like.. especially at your age and jay is right, "There are people in all kinds of relationships" so don't lose hope, it's not always sex that defines a relationship for everybody .. and hey, please know that even if you don't have a boyfriend yet, you can always turn to your friends, including us here (*hug*) cheer up (*hug*) :thewave:
The thing is ... I don't know who i am. I mean, i get the "no label" part but how can i think of myself if i don't know who is that self? I know that i'm a bit new too, only for like three months, but i'm really determinate to be who i want to be. I'm just so not happy with myself right now. I don't like the way i look, i don't like what's going on around me.. I wish i could just be me, like right now. Not having to wait and wait and wait. It's not going to happen, i know but i feel down a bit, sometimes. And i feel alone. And when i feel this way, i just want to have someone else than my best friend. I love her, i do, but that's why i need someone else. It can't be just on her, you know, all my troubles and wonders to her. Anyway, concerning the age, everyone has someone, or had someone and i just feel like some alien, not knowing anything. A part of me is like "you'll meet someone. It's a fact" and the other is like "you loser, you don't even like yourself, who's gonna love you?" I just feel lost and angry and different. It's tiring. But you guys are so sweet and all, i can't thank you enough, really. All you messages are so kind and supportive... Thanks.