for everyone newer I am a male, I haven't been on in a while, but it seems that day to day I find myself attracted to one gender then the other. never both at one time. Do you guys have any thoughts on that? I never understand why, but when I think about men I might enjoy it for a moment then later on I might end up thinking "wait why was I attracted to him" and with women I don't really think that. I am happy when I think of a woman that way. Like it is what I am suppose to think. Is this something that has subconsciously entered my brain from society or is it just me thinking I am suppose to be straight without any outside factors weighing on me?
You have HOCD. HOCD: Homosexual OCD & Sexual Orientation OCD | Steven J. Seay, Ph.D. You are trying to prove that you are 100% straight. When you feel attractions to women, you feel a great sense of relief. When you feel attractions to men, you get anxious. Read the article. It has lots of great information. One day at a time. (*hug*)
Ideally, you should just live your life. Don't obsess and don't stress about what your true orientation is. One day your true orientation will reveal itself to you. Just be prepared to accept and open to whatever orientation you truly are. I know what I just said is easier said than done. But, it is what you should do. Hope that helped. (*hug*)
