This has been bothering me for awhile, but especially now. I(male) have been struggling to figure out if I am bisexual or not. It comes with a story, so bear with me. So, when I hit puberty I also started watching porn. At the time I was only interested in girls, therefore I only watched male-female porn. Over time I found that I was watching the guy more than the girl, so I started to watch gay porn. After a couple years, I gradually started to watch both male-female and gay porn equally. At the same time I started to date my girlfriend who I have been together with for over two years and plan to spend the rest of my life with. While I find men are attractive, I can't see myself in a relationship with another man, even though I may find him physically attractive. I've never been in a sexual relationship with a man, which further complicates the situation. As a get more pressure from my girlfriend to settle down and start our lives together I wonder if I am bisexual. If so, should I take a break from my girlfriend in order to explore with men?
If I may ask, what type of porn do you watch? Is it with guys your age or what? But speaking of porn, it shouldn't be used to indicate your orientation. I suppose you can use porn to explore your likes/dislikes, but since the very nature of porn is taboo, you won't be able to get a "aha!" moment, where you'll discover your orientation. Porn is used to fill in a void, so to speak; it is to fulfill something that we are missing, or want. Does this ring any bells for you?
First of all, Hi and welcome to EC! I dont think you should "take a break" from your girlfriend just to explore your sexuality. I dont know her but if you think she's open minded enough to understand you, try talking to her about it. Honesty in relationships is VERY important because it keeps good communication flowing, thus strengthening your relationship with her. I can sense that you love her very much and your just confused. Just dont make sudden decisions. Think of the possible outcomes, both advantages and disadvantages, of your chosen decision. I hope I made sense. I hope I helped you. And I hope you find what you are looking for. If you need someone to talk to, I am just a wall post away Goodluck man!
