Here is my very first thread on EC. http://emptyclosets.com/forum/sexua...166239-just-started-questioning-age-40-a.html I started to question my sexuality in late Dec 2014. My interest in female peaked out at 5%. During my questioning period , I did my level best not to stress and fret over my orientation. I did try my level best to help as many people here on EC who were stressing out too much over their sexuality calm down. I tried my hardest to live my life as I always lived it. During my questioning period , I did notice how I react to men and women. I did notice that my interest in women in the weeks and months that passed , which only peaked at 5%, were slipping everyday. I also noticed my interest in men was inching back to 100% again. So, in the short span of a little over two months, I'm back to being 100% gay again. (!)
I think the biggest help I've received in times when I was questioning and unsure was the permission to base my identity on what I want and what feels right to me, rather than worrying about what my very unclear, uncertain and confusing way of noticing/relating to men actually 'means'. I might be 100% gay, or I might be 95% gay, I have no means of knowing/ finding it out and the uncertainty was making me really unhappy, I was worried that I was not gay, despite anything else not feeling right to me, but the reality is that a bit of uncertainty is normal/ to be expected, and I will just not let it confuse me again.
