I've just turned 19 this past December, and I've come to the realization that I've never, not once, been in love with someone. I've never had a crush past thinking some people looked cute. I don't know what that means, though I think deep down I do. It's just, I'm in love with the idea of love. I've always dreamed of having crushes and falling in love, but I don't have the faintest romantic interest in anyone at any given point in time. It's kind of depressing and I feel like giving up. Sorry, I've mostly been venting.
