It's going alright so far. I haven't left the house yet, so no attractions to guys. I'll post an update when I see the guy that I'm scared of being attracted to. I'm still anxious when I'm thinking about him. I'm scared that I'll look attracted to him. I accidentally saw a picture of naked men. I think I got turned on. That made me anxious.
I use to get that a lot. I'm uncomfortable around guys in general whether they look attractive or not. Probably had something to do with how I wastreated by my father, and I turn affected the way I was around guys. Keep us updated!
I saw that guy today. I got a bit anxious and made a weird face, but I didn't have any feelings of attraction. I didn't have enough time to talk to him because we were both in a rush. ---------- Post added 1st Apr 2015 at 05:09 PM ---------- I just saw a girl that seems cool. I didn't feel attracted to her. This is making me feel asexual. Now that I think of it I get turned on more by voices and mannerisms than looks. I didn't hear her talk.
Well, sweetie, it's possible not to be attracted to two different people but still have the possibility of being attracted to many other people. Small sample size. :3
I know. This is just an experient. I know the sample size is small. I think I'll do this experiment for a week or so. I'm just writing down how I feel throughout the experiment. ---------- Post added 1st Apr 2015 at 06:30 PM ---------- Another update. I am still feeling pretty chill about the bi label. I watched this music video and I think I got attracted the girl in the video. The attraction felt different and better than when I got turned on by the naked men earlier today. The attraction feels a bit warmer and it doesn't have as much anxiety as the one for men. I also felt something down there, but it's not as prominent as the feeling for the naked men. The feelings for the naked men started in my groin, but the feeling for the girl didn't. If I think about doing stuff with the girl I get more turned on, it just feels weird when I try to imagine having sex with the naked men. The feelings I'm getting for this girl remind me of this weird dream I had about a week ago.
I think you're feelings for the girls in the video wasn't as strong as the naked men was because well they was naked men! The naked body seems to fascinate anyone so you probably didn't feel the same way because the women were clothed. I'm glad you're beginning to feel comortable with the label and also embrace new things! That's real progress it's good to note that you don't really want to have sex with men-- save that until your end reflection on the experiment
The feelings for the girl in the video did last longer. It also made me generally more horny. That didn't happen for the random naked men. I did get one dream where I appeared to have deeper feelings for a guy. I enjoyed hugging him and eventually kissing him. It was weird.
