I'm a 30 year old cis-male who is looking for advice\help. I hesitate to label my sexuality but I guess I would consider myself pansexual. I have talked to very few people who I am close to about this but people don't seem to understand what I mean and assume its the same thing as being bisexual.. I have tried to take part in groups within the LGBT community however I have felt like a bit of an outsider. I have kept this part of me a secret to my friends and family for a long time but really feel like I am denying a large piece of myself. I feel very lonely but don't know who to turn to or how to talk to my family.
I hesitate about the bi/pan label too. Sometimes I feel that I'm really gay but I've been there and tried to accept the label. In the end it backfires. Now that I've looked into bi/pan, I feel that it represents me the most, but with a certain level of doubt involved. I'm not sure one if I should tell me parents either, probably cause I'm not certain of it yet.