I've recently settled that I'm bisexual, although a lot of times I still doubt myself. Recently I've realized that I've started to have feelings for a guy that I had sex with a month of two ago. Today he basically told me that he was starting to have feelings for someone else, and I knew what that meant. There is no doubt that I was disappointed and upset, but not as upset as the girl I broke up with last year. I feel that I'm over it with the guy. Was this even a crush at all? The fact that I'm able to forget about him this easily makes me wonder. On a separate note, when it comes to dating, there's times when I want to be in a relationship with someone, and times where I feel so glad that I'm not in a relationship with them (happens more often with girls than guys). I also feel scared of being in a relationship with a girl, I wonder why is that? I feel like I'm trying to hold onto the fact that I can still date girls, when really the interest is nowhere near guys. It's almost like giving myself false hope. Thoughts?
I've had similar situations before. I crushed on someone, only to have it fade after a while, I didn't have sex w/ them, but spent time with them and stuff like that. It's kinda one of those things where I get a new "shinny toy", but after a while I lose interest and move on to the next "shinny toy". With the girls situation, I also feel apprehensive around them and tend to be a little distant if I know a girl wants to hook up or likes me. If I know that's not the case I'm fine and treat her like I would any friend. I guess I'm trending away from girls at the moment, but I enjoy straight sex but I have found gay sex a little more passionate and pure raw emotion, kinda hard to describe.