This is really me venting more than anything but when I try and accept the fact I am not straight I find myself more straight than when I am in denial and it frustrates me. I spent this morning denying that I wasn't straight and was just thinking look that guy is really freaking attractive. Later on I just kind of said screw it it's cool that I find them attractive and what do I do I saw some of the same guys a few hours later and wasn't attracted to them at all. But some of the women there were just so attractive. Why is it that I try and accept that I might find guys attractive I don't find them attractive?
That's interesting. I have never experienced that (not that that makes it wrong.) It could just be that your sexuality fluctuates. It could stay like that forever, or resolve into just one thing. It is probably unrelated to acceptance.
I have never been diagnosed. The only thing I really remember doing that would be ocd is that I used to set my alarm clock three times every night just to make sure it was turned on. But nothing diagnosed so I can't say yes I have ocd
Even if you don't have OCD, people tend to be more confused if they have obsessive tendencies. Why did you think you were attracted to guys in the first place?
I honestly don't know. I mean I have always been able to look at a guy and acknowledge he was attractive but I wasn't wanting to get intimate. That has only been the past 4-5 years. I don't know when I started freaking about it exactly and what it meant. But I'm just really confused about all of it. Maybe because interactions with people were mostly females always pointing out how hot guys always are and being around it made me question I'm not really sure.
Maybe bisexual with fluctuating preferences, with attractions leaning more towards girls? Or in other words, mostly straight? Then again, fuck labels. I have obsessive tendencies too, that's what feeds the confusion.