Hi there. Geez this is nerve wracking. I've never really talked to anyone about this. Let's start with a little about myself: I've always considered myself a "straight girl" - I'm biologically female and I like guys. I'm 20, in college, and have a boyfriend and two older sisters. I like sports and shopping for specific items - like sports equipment (and some other things, but I can't shop for super long like my mom and sisters can). Ever since I was old enough to have a say, I've worn boys clothes. Basketball shorts, hats, tee shirts, sweatshirts - hell, even my shoes are men's shoes. I played hockey and playground games with the kids in my neighborhood/class growing up. Mostly I like "guy things" but I collect stuffed animals and went to Magic Mike with some of my girl friends, too. I've always been called a tomboy. But I'm not sure that's the case. I'm jealous of guys because I'm not one of them. It still bothers me, but I've accepted it to some degree, too. I think what I want at this point in my life is to cut my hair, do something about my boobs (cuz damn, I can't even hide them under a baggy tee shirt and sometimes not even a sweatshirt anymore, it sucks so much), and be seen as a guy to strangers. Now if I talk to people, and to my friends and family, I want to be a girl, at least right now. I'm okay with being "Daddy's little girl." So I guess I don't really want to change anything too drastically. More like, test the waters. But at the same time, I know that if I go through with that much and I like it, I'll do more. I'll consider a gender neutral name, I'll continue taking baby steps towards transitioning. How far I'll go, I'm not sure. Point is, I have no idea what I am. I'm pretty sure I'm not a "straight female" anymore (or that I ever was). I've always been supportive of the LGBT community but I've never really been part of it - or at least, I never considered myself a part of it. I think I do now, but there are so many new "labels" (do you guys have a better word for that?) and I can't figure out what I am. I think maybe gender fluid because I can definitely be girly too, but I'm not sure if it's entirely right because I know I'd rather be a guy, and I feel like I am a lot of the time, but I don't think I'm really transgender either. I want to try to figure out what I am so I have a word for it before I try to explain it to anyone. Can anyone help me out? What term or terms might apply to me? Thank you so much!
Ugh, I just realized I accidentally posted this in the wrong forum. Sorry guys! Must've misread or misclicked or something.
