Warning: this will be marginally graphic. I'm trying to sort out whether my attractions are more like bisexual, homoflexible or homosexual men's. I mostly look at gay porn. I think and fantasize about men more often, and the feelings are more animal, intense and instinctive. I usually need to think of men to orgasm, though not always. I do experience attraction to women, but it is weaker and less consistent. The feeling is more "real" somehow, as in I don't feel like I have to go as deep into that sexual trance (know what I mean?) to feel that way. Sometimes, only a woman can turn me on. When I notice attractive people in my day-to-day life, it is usually women, and even if I saw a man that I'd find attractive in my imagination, I don't usually feel much of a response, whereas I feel a little tightening when I see a women in tight clothes. But again, gay porn, stronger for men. What gives? As far as others have told me, most gay men are like this. Is it true?
Well I like gay porn and watch mostly gay porn (and straight), but I think it's because I like their bodies and wish to see it in myself; I want to have a attractive body like theirs, so in that sense I can get off to it because in my eyes it's attractive. I check out both guys and girls in the real world, although I think guys more often because of their appearance that I desire. I don't stare at girls as much as guys because I don't want people looking at me like I'm some pervert, so in a way I can get away with looking at guys because it could seem like I'm looking at something else in a distance. Most gay men will appreciate a females appearance, but it rarely turns sexual. Porn isn't meant to determine your orientation, although you can certainly use it to explore, as I have. My thoughts with girls do turn sexual most of the time, and to my understanding gay individuals don't do that, therefore the label doesn't feel right to me. I like both guys and girls, and most certainly in different ways.
