I recently accepted that I'm bi, or maybe fluid. Idk and idc, since its confusing. But I posted a question about being gay a couple of weeks ago. And today I am going through this struggle I guess with accepting that I might be gay or lean towards it even if I feel attraction for girls. The main question is does anyone feel like you have to burp, lol, or heartburn in your chest when you masturbate to guys?? Is this normal? Or is this shame that I have, unconscious shame? I never feel like this when I masturbate with a girl picture or porn video. And since I started to explore these feelings.. I felt like that after I masturbated. It doesn't feel good. It doesn't. Did any gay guy feel like this when they masturbated to girls? I'm trying to understand if its shame or disgust what I'm feeling..
I know I'm NOT 100% gay.. so I'm trying to get gays and straights to help me if they felt wrong masturbating to the wrong sex... like maybe I'm very confused. I don't feel like that with girls, I feel normal in thought or masturbation. With guys I feel normal when I fantasize about them, but when I look at pics or porn videos I don't understand why I feel that heartburn like feeling in my chest
I didn't enjoy at all lesbian porn even when I got a girlfriend, it seemed fake and I ABSOLUTELY UNDERSTAND YOU when you say something felt wrong. Hell, I preferred to masturbate to gay porn. It all changed when I started doing intimate things with her, because I watched the videos and I knew it was pleasurable and my imagination went smoother. With this, i'm not saying it would be the case for you, it's my experience.
Hi, that sounds familiar and maybe it relates not to whether you are gay or straight (or where inbetween) but to your guilt about it? Doing one sort feels OK but the other raises unconscious guilt?
arfff the fact is that most girl-on-girl porn are made by straight men for straight men as their primary audience market... I'm a gay so masturbating to gay porn is sort of ordinary, no shame and feels really satisfied i tried masturbate with straight porn several times but i my imagination is "damn that guy is a real hottie, *imagining myself being banged up by him*" and basically ignore the girl in the video. So its safe to say i have no experience in masturbating with girl picture or girl in any way in my imagination, because that's not me. And imagining a girl during my jack off time sort of freak me out and de-horny-fying... anyway that's just me maybe other gay guys have different opinion i dunno have a good day =)
@ Doc, I realized I wasn't specific in the end.. I mean why do i feel like that AFTER I masturbate, you know, when I'm done with it. Maybe it is unconscious guilt, but since I never did it before until a couple of weeks ago and today it keeps happening after I masturbated. Maybe it is guilt. I don't feel guilty with girls, I like it. A lot. Idk ---------- Post added 16th May 2015 at 03:25 PM ---------- @satorious I guess I am not completely gay. But I do feel like a heartburn in my chest AFTER I am done masturbating, you know. Like I told Doc, that's how I feel. I love watching straight porn, I love masturbating to girls. I just do. But when I masturbate to guys and I finish, Idk why... ---------- Post added 16th May 2015 at 03:29 PM ---------- @satorious, I also watched porn a couple of weeks ago and I felt just like you described, I felt like I was the girl. And that started all my confusion. It was the first time. I usually just watch porn and I'm the guy, not the girl. It depends, idk. It happens sometimes
arfff so you just started question yourself a few weeks back?? boy, my suggestion for you is take your time. Finding the "right" label are not a week journey. it took me approx 1 year from when i start question until i figure out and accept it myself some people even doesn't like labels or like to be labeled. when i first questioning my sexuality i found mine as fluid as yours but leaning strongly toward other guy, the guilt was started after watching the straight porn part. I used to be able to imagine myself doing it with a girl but that doesn't satisfies me and guilt me out... and it (ability to imagine myself doing with girl) slowly fade with time, and now i see girls *no pun intended* sexually not appealing in every way possible. It may fade or it may not. Your sexuality may keep as fluid as it is or it may settle in one place like mine... take your time you don't want to rush now and regret it in the future anyway have a good day
