Questioning

Hello, I'm here because I am curious. This is gonna be a long post tho.

I have been questioning my sexuality for the past year or so. I went through a lot of research on the topic. I guess I just want a bit more opinions since all cases of people here differ I suppose,and also to just let someone other than my family and friends hear about this,because more people amass more wisdom and experience. I come out of a very openminded family so I never had this gay is bad perception in my head.I never really had gay thoughts, like a wet dream once in my teen years but then I forgot about it.I never looked at guys in a sexual way. I had alot of relationship with girls,both sexual and crushes. I ejoyed every one of them and am currently in one now.

Now the recurrence of gay sexual thoughts came two years ago I think. It started with porn since I do agree it is a tool to explore sexuality. And then one time I got soft during sex with my girlfriend,now I should note that this was in our later phase of the relationship where she was growing a bit cold on me. I ofcourse panicked because....penile dysfunction isnt exactly a thing that you celebreate ya know? So I looked it up and it said that it could be latent homosexuality. So I started exploring my sexuality ,I watched all kinds of porn. From straight ,up to bdsm women,lesbian, gay,shemale, you name it I whacked off to it. Anyway my moods as to what arrouses me change.

So as I started thinking about this I decided to test this out.And so I went to ****** and chatted with a few people,and with the guy I clicked I tried it out. But the act of a blowjob on him or on me didnt quite please me so to say.I went immediatly flaccid. I didn't feel disgust I guess it just wasnt that arousing. So after that experience though I still watch gay porn. I mean, I guess I ama bit preoccupied with labels so to say, I just want to know what the hell am I ?

I mean I can just aswell imagine having sex with both sexes or shemales or whatever, dating is still more of a woman thing to me since I always chased after them.
But since then I accepted that I could potentially be also with a guy,like sexually or just a relationship I guess but these thoughts come and go.I dont give them much thought.I mean my girlfriend was fine with it and even gave me the greenlight if I feel the need to experiment but I really don't.

I just get sometimes very preoccupied with questioning wtf am I ?And that is the bothering factor in my life. I dont care if I'm straight,bisexual,gay whatever ,love is love right? But labelling is killing me haha.

I'm really sorry if this whole thread is a chicken without a head type story but I am just confused. I mean I sort of expected that this would be known to me from birth I guess.Not like a thing I have to figure out I guess,then again puzzles make life interesting.