Hi everybody! I ama 16 years old boy who has been questionin for a lot of time about his sexuality. Stuff that makes me thing I could be gay • I get really aroused by gay porn. Yeah, I sometimes jerk off with gay (teen) porn because ... well, I find cool those videos where two guys masturbate in front of each other - but even stay with only the boxers on - without any shame. I have sometimes thought of doing it with my friends, without any sexual purpose, just to have fun ("bromance"). I don't really like all the anal/blowjob stuff tho, I just feel like it isn't right. • It gets really longer to get aroused at lesbian porn. • I choose the straight porn depending by the guy. I don't like straight porn if the male isn't good looking. I thought that it's because I tend to identify myself in him, so he necessarily hasn't to be ugly. Stuff that makes me thing I am straight • I had a crush on a girl when I was 13, and it was even pretty long - 1 years and a half, till she friendzoned me. I even suffered a lot for her. Also, I never (but never-ever) had a crush for a guy. • I remember that, when I was child, I used to get aroused thinking of my female classmates naked. My friends and me even "idolised" a page of a topless model we found in our grandma's newspaper. • I don't feel like touching or kissing a guy, while I often think of doing it with girls when they are really near to me. Thus, can't see myself dating a male. When I picture dating a guy, it looks like meeting up with a friend and not feeling any romantic connection. • When I imagine my future (like bringing my sons to school), I think of a girl at my side. • I used to go to a therapist (not for this fact, more general problems) and he told me I am straight, and when I get aroused by males it's because I don't feel enough "masculine" (I was even bullied, being called "faggot", before all of this started). • I usually watch a little more the girl in straight porn. • In real life (so, outside the "porn" dimension) I don't get aroused by males. I go to the gym twice a week and, in the locker rooms, everyone is in boxer/naked and ... well, never got an erection. But I still do watching gay porn. Whut :bang: My "plot twist" is the one suggested by my former therapist. But ... well, I am still questioning me, don't know why. Thanks in advice for your help!
You could be bisexual with a preference for girls (heteromantic) or you could be straight and just have a liking for gay porn. You wouldn't believe how many straight women like lesbian porn. Don't focus too much on figuring yourself out right now. Just focus on who you like and it will eventually fall into place.
Don't focus so hard on labels. They come easily enough later on. You'll be confused the first few years most likely but that's normal. Just don't force anything out of yourself, you'll figure it out.
