Hi I am a 16 year old girl ( soon to be 17) and this might be a bit long. Um,...so I think I have always been a very sexual person don't get me wrong it's just that I showed signs of behaviour which are generally very sexual even when i was a little kid and had no idea about sex. Though I don't know how relevant this is. What I now realize is that sometimes the games I played with my dolls or the situations i would imagine for them would be very sexual. Also i am aroused by both heterosexual and lesbian porn. Anyway as long as I can remember I have always liked guys, I prefer their company and have been attracted to them both emotionally and physically, While i must admit beautiful women have always caught my eye. Then it started when i was 11 or 12 I was with a guy and we kissed for the first time and I loved the sensation. Things just went on from there, but at the same time i had this girl friend who was very dear to me and I loved her too. Till then it was just a emotional attraction i guess ,so i don't think it was a problem. Now what bothers me is that I met this girl last year and it was an instant connection she's so much like me and she understands things and never judges me. I love being with her and we have both been involved in relationships with guys and all but then we started flirting a lot. At first it was just fun but then I couldn't stop thinking about her and I don't know I really do love her. And all of a sudden I was attracted to her in a very physical manner, the feeling was/is overwhelming. When ever i see her i just want to kiss her. So I told her about it and she understood. Now sometimes she says that she wants to be my gf and she loves me but I don't know how serious she is. We hold hands,cuddle,hug,kiss each other on the cheek all the time, even in public. But she is also with a guy right now , they aren't dating but she likes him. SO i went to her house a few days ago and we were just lying her her bed cuddling and giggling and having fun. And I kissed her on the cheek ( I wanted to kiss her lips but didn't dare) anyhow she looked at me in a funny way and kissed me right on the edge of my lips like very close to my lips but not there and I couldn't stand it so I kissed her ( lips) and she kissed me back it went of for a few seconds then I pulled back. Then I was so embarrassed by it i hid my face in the blanket and was repeating oh my god oh my god and i said that oh god we just kissed to which she replies Don't think about it. But the thing is i can't stop thinking about it and I loved it absolutely loved kissing her I keep thinking about it...so i love kissing both boys and girls. P.S i think its interesting to note that she's the only girl i have such feelings for i have been close with girls before but i have never been sexually or physically attracted to anyone but her. I am just confused help me out. :tears:
It sounds like she is very open. I think you should talk to her seriously about your feelings. Just make it clear you understand she's in a relationship, and it's her choice who she picks. I think there is a good chance she likes you too. If she didn't, she would have just let you kiss her on the cheek instead of escalating things. Maybe just ask her if there was anything there?
Yeah I think I will try and talk to her but it's so difficult because I am not very sure about my feelings. Am I bisexual? Because I am most definitively interested in boys but I also feel feel sexually attracted to her. Also I am very comfortable with the idea of dating a girl but I don't know about the sex I mostly imagine it with a guy but idk I might have sex with a girl too , it depends on her, like in my case my friend is the one I don't know my boundaries what if m overthinking things?
