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Going Insane

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by Unknown User, Jun 28, 2015.

  1. Unknown User

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    So right now, I decided to settle on the label Bisexual. ... And it took me about a year to properly set into it. But now I feel like I need to change it... Again.

    I found out I was within the LGBT+ community when I started crushing on my friend (which was also my first legit crush). Really hard, like wanting to be with her/kisses/cuddles and stuff. It went on for a couple of months, and all I did was trying to fall out of it because she was straight and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. And from that, I then worked out "who I am." At first, I found the term Demisexual and played around with it. Then I started doubting myself and felt like I was lying with that label and then tried Pansexual, then Lesbian, then Bi, and then back to the start for the same reasons. I'm simply stuck in a loop.
    I tried to keep myself unlabelled until I was more in tune to myself... But I felt like I lost a piece of myself. In the end, I came out to my friends and my older sister (who all accepted me), and said I was Bi (while possibly keeping a preference to girls) because I felt scared of not knowing a sense to myself.

    I worked this out through some reasearch and some reflecting, but it doesn't feel like enough. I tried to look back on my past actions, and yeah, I thought liking femle characters more than male on TV was normal. But, anyways, I feel like I don't have enough experience to properly set myself on a label, as stated on my first crush. ... I can see myself dating girls, and see them all as attractive, but with boys it's a bit of just... Unknown. ... Maybe? I feel like I'm lying to myself. Could this just be a phase and I'm just overreacting?
    Augh, I'm frustrated and a bit scared of being lost of not knowing who I am.

    I guess I could just wait some more to learn about myself. Is 15 even a good age to find out who you are? I just don't know how I feel anymore.