I've always thought that I was straight. Like, I didn't think there was even the possibility of me being anything but. But recently (and when I say recently, i mean a couple weeks) I've come to the conclusion that i am definitely not. I know that I'm really attracted to girls and I really want to be with girls. But I'm not sure about anything else? I don't know if I'm attracted to anyone other than girls?? I am not completely opposed to the idea of being with a guy, but I don't think that i'm typically attracted to them? Like for all of my life I don't think I've ever genuinely been really attracted to a specific guy or guys in general? I'm sure I've been trying to convince myself that I am attracted to them because of some internalized homophobia or something like that, but when I think back I feel like i've been pretending?? And now since I'm really thinking about it in depth, I'm thinking back to all of the times where I've thought something like "wow, i think it would be great to try some sexual stuff out with a girl!!". But I've never really thought about anything like that for guys??? Maybe because I thought it was the norm and that was already implied?? But, I'm not sure if I really feel like that or, since i'm the kind of person where I want answers, I'm like trying to convince myself that I've been pretending just so I can slap a label on myself and be done with it?? I think I prefer women but I would settle for a guy? I feel like saying "I'm gay" feels better than saying "I'm bi"... like it feels more right??? but I'm not sure. I don't think this made any sense. I'm really confused. Please just give me any advice you can from what you got out of this. I'll answer any questions. :help::confused2:
Just give yourself some time to think it through, don't rush it just because you wanna know right now, it's okay not to know what you feel toward guys will eventually become more clear at some point.
