So... I've never considered that I might like guys.. I've always wondered what it might be like to experiment.. But never considered a relationship. I have a gay friend that constantly hits on me... I've never been interested in him sexually.. We're friends. Just like I don't want to sleep with my female friends. Lately, I have been looking at gay porn out of recommendations from believe it or not, straight guy friends. They think the guys are more into it. Give better More realistic oral, and the penetration is more intense. I have to say, I agreed and have thrown gay bareback porn in my library. I have found myself getting off to gay porn now more than straight porn. Anyway... One night my buddy and I went out. He wanted to go to a gay bar.. So I said sure.. (This isn't going to where you think it's going) we had a good time. He got drunk, And I brought him home. He tried hitting on me... Rubbing my crotch and kissing me. I didn't reciprocate... But I was aroused. Again, he's my friend.. I'm not going to sleep with him... That night, I went online onto a blog, and started chatting with a guy my age. He's gay, and posted that he was looking to chat with straight guys. So we chatted. I told him about my experiences, and what I found to be a turn on. We started sending pics. Naked and not. I started to get really turned on by his dick and started to fantasize about giving oral. The more we talked the more I got turned on. Next thing I know, he's calling me and we're engaging in phone sex... And I couldn't get the thought of being a submissive bottom to him out of my head. Since then we have been talking regularly. Chatting... Talking about our lives. We have similar interests, and a lot in common. I find myself VERY sexually turned on by him. But, just him. Sure the gay porn ib watch gets be off... But I'm not imagining myself getting laid by just anyone. We have chatted over Skype and have found each other very attractive. Every time I think of him... Instant boner... We're thinking of making plans to meet, we're both curious where this could take us.. My question is, is it just him?. Am I gay? Bi? Questioning?. I know I'm jumping to far a head, but we both feel this attraction is too great to ignore and I can honestly say no one has ever made me feel this way. I'm scared of what the future will bring. Coming home and telling family I'm all about the D. I don't think they'll reject me... But I knew it'll be weird because I've been a womanizer for my whole life... Advice? Anyone else experience this? Sorry for the typos... I share a PC with my ex GF. (We broke up 4 months ago and are waiting for the lease to be up). So I'm using my iPhone. Which this adds a whole new layer of complication. While we are platonic, she's dating someone.. I can't imagine doing it with a guy and shes in the next room.. Not to mention how weird she will feel... Ugh! HELP.. Closeted in Chicago...
Before anyone else gives you an answer on what orientation you on, I'll give you my take on this. It sounds like prior to meeting this guy on a blog, you've already wondered what it would be like to experiment with a man. You are aroused by this man and would like to meet up with him. So at this point, I would say that you are probably attracted to guys to some extent, which would fit the heteroflexible or bisexual label. Have you ever had feelings for guys? Feelings are also worth considering when it comes to labels. Bisexual may also work in this case as well, but that's up for you to decide. My orientation is extremely fluid so there's times where a certain label will fit and sometimes it will not. I will say that if you've had feelings and are attracted to women up to this point, I personally do not think it is likely for you to be gay. When it comes to porn, it's not the greatest indicator in the world. It may help you explore your interests in both fantasy and reality, but it should not equate to your sexuality.
