Okay, I don't know how much detail I am allowed to go into on here so I'll make it brief. I am a 16 year old male who is straight (So I thought) who has only ever been attracted/had crushes on/thought were sexy etc towards girls, until today. I somehow got onto gay porn and I really enjoyed it (got really excited, and when it was over the feeling was completely gone and I felt guilty), even though I have never been attracted to a male, I have never thought a man was good looking or thought about having sex with them etc. I've only ever thought about those type of things with females. Am I gay/bi or what? Could it be that I was excited over something that I "shouldn't be doing" kind of thing? TL;DR Never found men attractive; only women but liked gay porn
I've read multiple comments/posts on this site where people say your choice in porn does not reflect your identity in many cases. So I wouldn't so much worry about it - it sounds like it might be like you said - just got excited about doing something you thought you shouldn't be. similar to sneaking out of your house at night or something. If you've never felt attracted to a man in person...or don't fantasize about them during sex/masturbation...then I think it's not much to worry about.
Yeah. It can only strongly mean something if it awoke something inside you. But even if it did just think of it as something you found curious. It doesnt mean it is defining. i know its horrible to hear this but you are still young and people always learn about their sexuality later on in life.. AGAIN , this means nothing about you. Just continue your life and dont let it consume you. Easier said then done. trust me i know. but it is possible.
Thank you for your replies. It has just really confused me. Although I have nothing against people who are gay I just don't want to be (No offense intended)...
Trust me i feel the same way. I dont understand why people say they choose this. I really dont ! No offense taken HUUUG!(*hug*)
Meh I prefer guy-guy porn too and yet I have no interest in men in real life. However, I do know that men watching porn is a bit different. But really, there are reasons to like porn without being attracted to the actors on screen.
I don't know why I liked it even though I have never ever been attracted to a guy in real life. Never even acknowledged them as being an option kind of thing... The thought of what I did almost disgusts me now... :bang:
Well, it doesn't sound like you take much of an interest in guys irl. With the porn, I think it's worth considering why you're being aroused by it. Yes, it could well be the actors, but ask yourself- is it the fact it's new or taboo? Is it the situation? Is it the sexual energy of the scene rather than anything else? I think guys are more visual when it comes to porn, but that doesn't mean if they watch gay porn they must necessarily be attracted to guys, they might just enjoy the porn for some other reason like I mentioned. So when you're watching gay porn a good idea imo would be to think about what specifically about it is turning you on, That might give you a better overview. As well as that, as well as porn I think you should consider fantasies, sexual or romantic (imagination, without any porn). Have some sessions where you fantasise about girls and then about guys and see what your reaction's like. Or if you prefer, just let your mind wander and see which gender you wind up thinking about. For many people this is more helpful than porn, because there's no external stimuli- it's just your thoughts, so a lot of the time it's a more accurate reflection of your attractions. Whatever you conclude, the main thing is to try and not overthink things. Easier said than done of course, but but thinking about it all the time can be really exhausting. Anyways, hope this brings you some clarity!
I think it could be something to do with it being taboo, like you said. Another example (A weird one at that) is when I was younger and I used to smoke secretly. It would "turn me on". Probably because I wasn't meant to be doing it kind of thing. (WEIRD I know lol :eusa_doh: ) It's kinda hard to fantasize about males because I don't really like it... The video I watched was weirder and the person was basically female but had a penis, so it was kind of easier, but I don't know. Hopefully it's because it's seen as taboo. Thanks for your reply. Reassuring.
To add to my post above, it's only one video that does it - I think. I cannot watch gay porn solely and get aroused because I dislike it and don't find it pleasant at all (Again, no offence to those who are gay etc). I have to already be there (aroused) to enjoy it sort of thing. It's confusing. And when I've "cooled off" those thoughts are completely gone...
