I've only understood my sexuality since around last september, and I came out in March as bi. I didn't explain that I'm more attracted to women than men, I just quickly said "i'm bi" to my mother and she told my dad. I'm going to an LGBT thing in 3 days, I'm really hoping I meet a girl I like, but I probably won't and I'm just happy to be more included with the lgbt and around people I can comfortably speak about my orientation with. Thing is I've also been extremely sexually frustrated and lonely. I want a girlfriend so I can do so many things to treat her well, sometimes I want a girl with me just to:tantrum: cuddle and sleep with so bad my body is sore and I wish I had a girlfriend who would rub my back and make me feel a little less down. I feel I think about these things too much, my orientation is at the forefront of my mind all of the time; it doesn't feel healthy and I just want a girlfriend. I feel like I haven't even come out properly because my parents probably think I'm mostly straight or something, but I also hate talking about my sexuality so much that when he asked me what attending the event did for me/what it was. i side stepped the main point of the event just by telling him about side-purposes of the event. I'm feeling like an empty shell because I have difficulty expressing myself and I just don't want to be silent and alone.
