Okay so this is the first time I've ever put this idea somewhere else then my head, I'm going to put it all out there because I need advice.... I am a 16 year old female, I'm a junior (11th grade) in high school. When I was 11 I made out with a friend as a dare in the game "truth or dare" I was super nervous because it was my first kiss. As it happened it was like fireworks just went off. I very much enjoyed it. When I was in elementary school I was molested by a 17 year old male. So I do have trust issues with guys and I felt that was the reason guys turn me off. But flash to now, I've never had another encounter with a female, but I have with males. I've made out with guys before and it's nothing special. I've only fooled around with one guy before and I didn't enjoy it. He wanted to have sex but I said no every time it got that far, something just didn't feel right, I was supper uncomfortable. So after that experience I really didn't feel comfortable with the idea being with another guy. But I do find guys attractive and like flirting with them but being with a guy doesn't seem like me. Then it got me thinking do I like girls? Maybe me blaming the whole "guys don't turn me on because of the molest" is just me denying what is really going on. I've always checked girls out, if i ever watched porn (which is rarely) I hated straight porn I only liked watching the lesbian ones, I see myself marrying a woman not a man. I'm completely expecting of myself, but I live with a homophobic uncle that I don't know what he would do if he found out. I know he will love and support me and change his ways if it came down to it. I'm just confused if I should keep my emotions in or let them out? Is it normal to discover someone is gay at an older age?
