First off I have a very high libido and have to relieve myself multiple times a day, (sorry if that was TMI!) so when I first found out about sex and porn, I felt attracted to women both aesthetically and sexually. Then for a long time in fact up until recently I found myself sexually attracted to guys, and women turned me off, and I was also very turned on by transgender (mtf) people and cross dressers, but it was only sexually and not aesthetically. So this has confused me for quite a bit. Especially since now I'm attracted to men, women, and transgender people. So am I gay, bi, or straight? All of this also made me question if I am transgender or not. Any advice helps!
You know, it's odd that you mention this because I actually get turned on from Transgender (mtf) porn. I have absolutely no idea why, but you gotta wonder what a vagina feels like, right? But speaking of porn, it's not a clear representation of reality. Believe me, I was a hardcore porn addict, but I wanted to stop because it was affecting me in the real world. Just get out there and explore! Or use the monitor for now, just make sure you don't get desensitized to it.
I've been trying to get away from porn but it's hard some days. Especially since I have nothing better to do. And I would like to explore my sexuality with someone of the same gender but living in a place where all the gay guys are at least two years older than me and way out of my league. It's extremely difficult. And I've told my friends how I'm questioning my sexuality and no one approves of it. They won't hurt me or stop talking to me, but they definitely won't help me to find out. And to make matters worse all the hetro relationships I've had have crashed and burned big time. So I guess talking to people here on EC and the Internet are going to be my only way to find out..... (Wow I really like to talk and dump my problems on people.....)
Maybe you could be pansexual? Pansexual means gender does not matter if you are attracted to someone. You could be attracted to cis and trans guys and girls, genderqueers, non-binary, whatever. Maybe something to look into. But porn is never a good way to determine sexuality. Try imagining yourself with different people than watching sex.
