So I'm 19 years old, and I have been struggling with this for a couple years now. For some reason, I am obsessed with mens underwear, in every way, wearing it, looking at it, thinking about it, but I have never kissed or been with a guy before. I have thought about it, but I don't know if thats just me thinking about the underwear. I have been with plenty of girls, each one I get excited about, I usually don't find myself fantasizing about guys during the day unless I am thinking about them seeing me in my underwear. But whenever I go to a store that sells mens underwear and swimwear, I love walking around in the store in briefs and speedos, but if people in public see me I get really nervous. The only time I've ever tried to have sex with a girl, I couldn't get hard. I recently slept with a girl the other night, it was nice, but I didn't feel "attached" to her, maybe I just wasn't into her. I came to two conclusions, either I am just nervous and going through normal thoughts or I'm into guys and I just haven't been able to prove myself that. The only problem is, I have no idea where to start meeting other guys my age like me, and maybe "experimenting." Let alone I'm nervous about trying to meet other guys in fear that people I know might find out. Plus, I go out and buy a bunch of underwear and swimwear and am too nervous to ever leave the house in it... I've thought about going to the beach wearing a speedo, but what if I was seen. Or even maybe letting a girl see me in briefs, or trying to meet a guy my age. I just don't know what I want to do. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
