I'm 26 and married. I love women. However, I have been with men. It started when I was 18. I started watching different kinds of porn including anal. Eventually, I started playing with my own ass. I did this all the time. After watching more and more porn I eventually got into trans females (pre). I found everything about them to be attractive, including their cocks. This slowly worked its way into gay porn and chatting with gay men. It seems as though I am very attracted to cocks but not necessarily to men. Every once in a while I will see a man who I find attractive. I have even been with men. I have given a couple blowjobs and even had anal sex with one man. Each time I felt awkward and told myself I was over it but I would again chat with guys and fantasize about their cocks. Both of these occourances took place before I was married. I'm pretty clear on my likes and dislikes, but I am confused on how much further should I go. Should I cheat on my wife to find out how far my interets in other guys go? There is only one life to live. Hopefully, I can find someone that has been in a position similar to mine and can offer a piece of advice.
I'm going to flat out tell you that you should absolutely not cheat on yor wife because you're unsure of your sexuality. It sounds to me as though you're bi or pan sexual. However I'm more concerned over the fact you feel so troubled by this attraction that yore looking to cheat on your wife. If you're so out of love with her or no longer want to be married, then divorce her. It's wrong and inconsiderate to hurt someone like that because you're curious. And how awful would it be if you wanted to go back to her but she wouldn't accept you? Maybe talk to her about these feelings. If that's not an option I would suggest a therapist, particularly a sex therapist or one who specializes in LGBT issues to help you sort this out.
