Okay so i'm about to be a senior in high school...Everything's been going great. I've had a boyfriend, a fantastic one at that who I was very much attracted to. Romantically and sexually, no i've never done anything sexual with one, but i've been kissed and felt the butterflies and the whole shabang. I also used to pretend my favorite male celebrities who I fawned over, were my husbands. Like it was pretty intense. But, at the same time I get very turned on by lesbian porn and especially boobs. Like i've always had a strange attraction to them...I've never had a crush on a girl or even wanted to be with one sexually but recently i've had this feeling in my stomach saying that i'm like not straight and I don't really like guys and i've just been pretending. But, i've never felt that way before... I'm so confused and it's making my stomach go in knots. I have absolutely nothing against people who are gay or lesbians, i'm even close friends with a lot but it's just not the life I thought I would ever live...It doesn't feel right to me. I still know in my heart I want to marry a man and have kids with him but I just want this feeling to go away...Help, please?! What are your thoughts?!
I think you are straight and porn is messing with your head. Unfortunately it happens a lot. A lot of people mix what they are attracted to in porn for what they may be attracted to in real life which are two complete different things. Porn allows you to watch all type of different sexual intercourse, some you may practise like straight sex and some you may not like lesbian or gay sex, BDSM and other things. Porn portrays those activities in a way that is exciting for whoever watches it, that is why lesbian porn is often more than not, not really representative of the reality and made for straight guys and why some lesbians find themselves to enjoy gay or straight porn even though they aren't attracted to men in real life. You don't seem to be attracted to women in real life therefore I highly doubt you are even remotely bisexual and even more though that you ever pretended to be straight. You seem to like men and that's fine, lesbian porn doesn't make you bi or lesbian the same way it doesn't make guys that watches it more supportive of gay rights. Just relax and stop over thinking your sexuality, you are still able to marry a man and have kids.
