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Porn vs real life - I know about the whole porn is not a good indicator thing but....

Discussion in 'Sexual Orientation' started by Confuseddude, Sep 6, 2015.

  1. Confuseddude

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    OK so as the title says, I know about the whole idea that porn is not a good indicator of sexual orientation and I agree however whilst it may not be a good indicator do you think that it can be used as some form of indicator?

    You see the thing is, I can masturbate to lesbian porn, I can masturbate to images of women - pornographic images or even just standard images of nice looking girls. I can use just my imagination to think about women - women in porn/pornographic situations or real life women in real life situations. When I do any of the above it feels fully satisfying and enjoyable.

    OK, so I can easily do all of the same things to men. Which is more satisfying seems to come down to what mood I'm in at the time. I'm not straight. Cool.

    Now, based on all of the above and nothing else, it would be safe to assume that I'm bisexual. In fact, I find it hard to think that anybody would assume differently, although I'd love to hear from anyone who did?

    The trouble is, in real life, I have suffered from terrible erectile dysfunction with women. It's a story which seems quite familiar around here, I've never had a girlfriend, I'm almost always heavily intoxicated when I've attempted sex with women. I'm really quite confident etc in general life but I've never in my life been comfortable with women. I get extremely nervous around them. Even more so these days than when I was younger.

    I had literally no idea I was anything other than straight until I was 23 years old. By that time I had tried and failed to have sex with no less than 8 women in my life. That was one of many factors which finally made me question my sexuality to the point where I thought I was definitely gay and had just gone through 23 years of very deep personal denial/internalized homophobia. It's been pretty much a year since I made that realization and since then I've gone from gay to straight to bisexual a million times in my head. TBH, bisexual is the label which seems to sit best with me but despite multiple attempts I've never been successful with a women in real life.....which makes me think that maybe I'm not bisexual at all. Maybe all the porn I've watched in my life, combined with internalized homophobia has just made me think I am.

    Anyone got thoughts or similar experiences?
     
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    Re: Porn vs real life - I know about the whole porn is not a good indicator thing but

    Hello ConfusedDude.
    I am not the most sorted person at the moment, but I can try sharing my thoughts.
    You do mention about having been with 8 women, what about men? If yes, how did it feel?
    Also, why do you think you are uncomfortable with women with it comes to sex?
     
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    Re: Porn vs real life - I know about the whole porn is not a good indicator thing but

    In my experience, being heavily intoxicated never helped me achieve a good erection. So you might want to lay off the booze when you try having sex - with either gender.

    It's not easy for me to admit, but I've struggled on and off with erectile dysfunction, too. I thought I might be gay. But you know what? It happens when I'm with men, too. I still battle with it from time to time, but it has gotten better since I got treated for my add and my depression. Sometimes I was either too depressed or too distracted to be in the moment for sex, which I think detracted from my ability to achieve or maintain an erection.

    Why do you think you feel extremely nervous around women? Are you worried they will judge you? Are you worried you won't be able to get it up? What is the thoughts repeating in your head when your feeling nervous around a woman?
     
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